Monday, March 21, 2011

35 weeks and counting

Sometimes I wonder how on earth I got to be 35 weeks pregnant! This pregnancy has totally flown by.  Well, minus the first 13 weeks when I was incredibly nauseous.  I guess I've just been super busy this pregnancy.  And, it's really amazing how having a child can distract you.  Not that I don't care about this pregnancy and this baby, it's just that my current child requires a lot of my attention.  That and, oh, yeah, school.  I'm working way less this pregnancy than the last pregnancy, but that makes me a very very happy momma.  My stress level is way less this pregnancy, despite having some stressful situations.  This pregnancy has just been different.

I'm more active this pregnancy & I can tell a big difference.  Not only have I been doing yoga since 16 weeks this pregnancy (started at about 32 weeks with first pregnancy).  While I haven't walked in a long time, I have walked more this pregnancy than I walked the entire first pregnancy.  In general, I'm just more active.

I have enjoyed this pregnancy more.  It's sad to say, but I don't really want this pregnancy to end.  I know I probably won't ever be pregnant again.  I'm savoring every moment (except those first 13 weeks).  I'm enjoying every kick.  Sleepless nights don't bother me so much.  I love the crazy kicks this baby gives me.  While I can't wait to meet him, I'm loving being a pregnant momma.

So, yeah, this pregnancy has FLOWN by!  I'm really working on pregnancy affirmations right now.  I know it may sound corny, but I have to do this.  I think labor is going to be as much a mental battle as a physical journey.  I am planning a VBAC and I have to wrap my mind around the fact my body can and will do this (when it's ready).  I think about the absolutely perfect timing of this pregnancy.  Absolutely perfect.  And, I know that he will come when the timing is absolutely perfect.  When my body feels safe and secure.  I will be surrounded by those people who support me.  I know that people who aren't there will be supporting me in their own way.

I'm still working through a bunch of emotional stuff right now.  Hopefully, my mind will be settled and peaceful when this baby arrives.  I need comfort.  Until then, I will wait patiently for my perfectly timed baby.

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