Sometimes I wonder how on earth I got to be 35 weeks pregnant! This pregnancy has totally flown by. Well, minus the first 13 weeks when I was incredibly nauseous. I guess I've just been super busy this pregnancy. And, it's really amazing how having a child can distract you. Not that I don't care about this pregnancy and this baby, it's just that my current child requires a lot of my attention. That and, oh, yeah, school. I'm working way less this pregnancy than the last pregnancy, but that makes me a very very happy momma. My stress level is way less this pregnancy, despite having some stressful situations. This pregnancy has just been different.
I'm more active this pregnancy & I can tell a big difference. Not only have I been doing yoga since 16 weeks this pregnancy (started at about 32 weeks with first pregnancy). While I haven't walked in a long time, I have walked more this pregnancy than I walked the entire first pregnancy. In general, I'm just more active.
I have enjoyed this pregnancy more. It's sad to say, but I don't really want this pregnancy to end. I know I probably won't ever be pregnant again. I'm savoring every moment (except those first 13 weeks). I'm enjoying every kick. Sleepless nights don't bother me so much. I love the crazy kicks this baby gives me. While I can't wait to meet him, I'm loving being a pregnant momma.
So, yeah, this pregnancy has FLOWN by! I'm really working on pregnancy affirmations right now. I know it may sound corny, but I have to do this. I think labor is going to be as much a mental battle as a physical journey. I am planning a VBAC and I have to wrap my mind around the fact my body can and will do this (when it's ready). I think about the absolutely perfect timing of this pregnancy. Absolutely perfect. And, I know that he will come when the timing is absolutely perfect. When my body feels safe and secure. I will be surrounded by those people who support me. I know that people who aren't there will be supporting me in their own way.
I'm still working through a bunch of emotional stuff right now. Hopefully, my mind will be settled and peaceful when this baby arrives. I need comfort. Until then, I will wait patiently for my perfectly timed baby.
